Hello guys, good night! Welcome all of you once again to this meeting, here, through Paltalk! These meetings are always a unique moment, a perfect time for celebration. That is how all these moments of Truth investigation are. We meet in Satsang for this investigation.
There is something much greater than someone doing this investigation, there is something here much bigger than that. Every time we meet, we treat about it. It seems that we investigate in order to get rid of something, to get rid of this illusion, this sense of a separate "self". So, to get rid of this connection with suffering, with despair, with the misery of the ego. This may appear to be like this, but in fact, this is only an idea. If this "separate self" is trying to accomplish something for itself, if it is trying to attain Self-realization, this liberation through investigation, it is not real. Whatever this "separate self", this "illusory self" seeks to do, it will always further strengthen the sense of an author, of someone doing something, and there is the illusion. The investigation does not have this purpose, it is not someone's investigation, not a separate entity trying to do something.
The curious thing is that it is only this separate entity that wants to get rid of this sense of separation. This nuisance, this suffering, this misery creates it. So, what this separate entity - this illusion of a present entity creating the suffering, this own weight of the sense of separation, this misery always looks for something, even trying to get rid of all this, the so-called spiritual quest - is doing is keeping that veil, strengthening that veil. Every effort is in this direction. Every effort further strengthens this veil. The simplest thing is the most difficult for this illusion of the self, the me, the person, because the simplest thing is to stop with any searching, stop with all this movement trying to find it.
The ego has been trying to find this Happiness, this Peace, this Freedom. It tried in worldly things, now it is trying on so-called spiritual things. It tried materialism and is now trying to spiritualism or spirituality. All this search movement that the egoic mind has, all this sense of someone present in the pursuit of happiness, it is hiding its own Happiness; the search for peace is hiding Peace itself; the search for freedom is hiding Freedom.
Sooner or later you will have to give up the search, will have to give up all the effort in ego to realize the end of the ego. This relentless pursuit through spiritual practices, as well as readings of books and spirituality studies, only further away this Truth - the Truth of your Essential Nature, your Real Nature. Spiritual practices, the study of spirituality, the quest for spirituality has many ramifications. There are searches, practices and readings for all tastes. This goes from religious doctrines to the study of Advaita. And all this is just a great illusion - this illusion of searching. The very "self", that very sense of separation strengthens, becoming more and more refined, more purified, more spiritual.
Some of you, here in this room, have experienced it, and others are still going through, are not yet tired of spirituality. Although tired of the pursuit of material achievements, you are now seeking for spiritual achievements. None of this is real. Before, used to be a materialistic “self” there, now there is a spiritualistic “self” instead. There was a "self" there that knew nothing about spirituality, now there is a "self" there that knows a lot about spirituality, even able to teach it, from so many books, so many lectures, so many teachings he got.
And I'm repeating this here: this attempting of the “self” to accomplish something by itself will strengthen it. Either in worldly life or in spiritual life. This is the very veil that hides the reality of the ever present Truth, which cannot flourish, bloom, manifest. Sooner or later you have to get rid of all this, of all your spirituality. You are going to have to get rid of the own pursuit of the end of suffering by spiritual practices, because in your deep, you want to replace this misery, this pain, this suffering for something spiritual, and this is still the veil that covers this Reality, this Truth , this Grace of true Happiness, of true Love, God's Present Truth, of Present Wisdom.
It sounds very strange, doesn’t it?
Ego is tireless in its quest. And here it is about the end of the search, complete emptying of all the content, both material and spiritual. You're always carrying a new practice, a new book, a new instruction, believing that any new idea will bring you closer to that, but you do not know what it is, the mind does not know what it is. This is beyond your knowledge, beyond the mind. This is present when you are not, when the mind is not, when the search or this seek to get rid of suffering is not.
There is no suffering only when there is no illusion, but not when you try to accomplish it by seeking the end of suffering. Only by the end of this illusion means the end of suffering, not by the search of the end of suffering. There is only Happiness when there is the end of this illusion - the illusion of finding Happiness in materialism or spiritualism. Happiness is the Nature of Truth, It is when there is no search - neither the search for the end of suffering nor the pursuit of happiness. This is the very veil that covers this Truth from the absence of suffering, the Real Happiness.
Are you following this?
I'm saying that you cannot achieve this, you're just messing up. All your effort is just to mess up. This has to be under the care of the Grace, under the care of God, under the care of this Presence. This presence is the Guru, is the Consciousness, God, is the Truth. In other words, while this "separate self" is being considered real, it is inevitable that it will keep trying to get rid of suffering, trying to find happiness, that it keeps trying to get rid of the mind. The mind trying to get rid of itself, the "self" trying to get rid of the "self" ... can you notice the trick? Unhappiness trying to find happiness, conflict trying to find peace. All that the conflict does is to produce more conflict, all that unhappiness does is to produce more misery, all that the mind does is within the very mind, it is only strengthening the mind itself. My Guru, Ramana, my Master, used to say that this is like the thief dressed as a policeman trying to arrest the thief.
Perhaps, at this point of the meeting, you may ask: So, what to do?
I can assure you that there is a moment when you realize, clearly, by investigation, that you are going in circles. This moment can be seen, at first, as hopeless. But, in fact, this is your big chance to give up, to stop this effort. This effort is this illusion trying to get rid of the illusion, it is the "I" trying to get rid of the "I", it is the mind trying to get rid of the mind. At this moment, the surrender, the renunciation happens . That's when the Grace can take over, the Presence can take over, God can take over, the Guru can take over.
That is the moment when you realize the importance of what has all importance. God is that only thing that matters! The Guru is this one thing, the Truth, the Presence of Grace! At this point, at this stage, at this moment, suffering can no longer maintain itself, the illusion of separateness can no longer keep itself, the ego can no longer sustain itself - the ego in its search, in its pursuit ... Then, immediately, a window is opened. Then, this window loses importance, and a large door is opened, much higher than that window. It is a door with two sides and, in pairs, they are opened. This is a call of God, Grace, of this Presence. So, you stop everything, you give up, you do not resist, you surrender. Then, the real work, for the first time, begins to happen, because you are no longer there, because there is this willingness to try to do this alone, through your skills, techniques, capabilities ...
Participant: Master, at the final minutes, could you clarify us what Self-inquiring is?
Master: Self-inquiry means, basically, to doubt from yourself, to completely doubt from absolutely any power or skill/ability you have – which actually is only the movement of the mind itself. All power or ability/capability is still the ego, from the own egoic mind. So, the expression "Who Am I" or "What am I" is not a question to find an answer. It is an exclamation, not a question. A waiver of exclamation, of no resistance. It means being quiet, effortlessly, without any movement, a complete surrender to this Grace, this Presence, this Truth that is the Self. I mean your Real Nature, your Divine Nature. The Presence of this Grace makes it blooms, awakens. This Self-inquiry means your whole heart into This, your whole life into that exclamation! It is not a mere intellectual question, verbal, it is not a formula that is repeated like a mantra ...
The difficulty that you feel here, at this moment, is that you do expect me to give you a formula, that I do exactly what the books are doing to you, to you - they are giving formulas.
Truth is something very alive, very real. What is not alive might be found at some point; what is alive is moving ... A body wrapped in swaddling is a mummy, and you can find it, you find that body wrapped in swaddling. Truth is not a coiled body in bands. Truth is not wrapped in words, in knowledge, in practices, experiences, techniques ... Truth is not a wrapped body with this whole thing. Truth is something alive! Truth is alive, you realize it, it is your True Nature. That's your Real Nature, which is beyond mind, beyond the known, beyond knowledge, words, spiritual practices, techniques ...
Okay, guys! Let’s stay here! Therefore, the invitation continues: personally, we can investigate this better, ok!?
*Transcribed from an online meeting on the night of June 20, 2016
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