This is the secret

Adopting the attitude of looking at what goes on inside you means being interested in investigating the question: "Who am I?" When you come across some form of internal conflict, such as fear, for example, and recognize it without denying, without running away, without repressing, then you have something very valuable, which is the approach to this vision. It is to live in this proximity, to welcome, to adopt, to accept this compassionate, benevolent and patient attitude that allows this to be seen.

Nothing can work as better as this. Nothing else can be done. Any movement you make will be based on conflict to produce more conflict. It will be based on confusion to produce more confusion. This movement is an escape that can bring a momentary relief, but the conflict remains. Repression by escape is one of the traps of the egoic mind.

It is important that you see what is presented before you. This is like a snake that comes into your room. If you know it has come in, your duty is to find it. And not to go under the blanket, because this will not solve it. Even if you do not want to look at it, you already know it is in the room.

Fear is present and you know that the blanket will not save you. But if you are on the bed and can see it completely, you are already one step forward toward the liberation of fear. It is the same with the movement of the egoic mind. If you do not deny it, if you do not hide it, you can see it. But if your attitude is of denying, of hiding, of trying to escape from it, it will continue to haunt you, to frighten you.

I am showing you how to handle this illusory entity, this false "I," this ego, which, by the way, is this "snake in the room." The point is to ask yourself, "What is this? Who is this one afraid?" If you do this, you can see this movement, this set of thoughts, feelings and sensations in the body, quite unpleasant ones. When you can see this, you can see the "snake." You are not free yet, but you have taken the most important step to go beyond fear, to go beyond the ego. In fact, this is all a spectacle created by the mind.

If you do this, you can see What Is, and then you see the "snake" leaving. You will not try to kill the "snake." You will not try to do anything with it. This "snake," in this figure of speech, is the imaginary movement of the ego with its quite frightening reactions. No matter how frightening or unpleasant this sensation is ... Look at those reactions.

Everything is a great spectacle for you to be a spectator, a witness, an observer. Do contemplate your reactions, your denial, your desire to flee, your fear. When you begin to acknowledge your denial, this will be the beginning of acceptance. It is necessary that you become an expert, a real master at dealing with what goes on within, and no one can do it for you. If you do not take on this full responsibility (I have called this "honesty"), nothing so profound will happen to you.

What I am saying is that fear, conflict and suffering are your ego, the "snake in the room," the "monster." A "monster" you follow up, actually. It is not ‘it’ that accompanies you. It is not it that is with you. It is you who are accompanying it. It is you who are assigning reality to your ego.

At first, you think the ego is your enemy. But I am saying the ego is your creation, an illusion created by the force of the habit of living in that model for so long. It is necessary to deconstruct this!

So, it is not the ego that accompanies you, it is you who build it, sustain it. You see the "snake" entering the "room," and instead of following its movement, you hide under the "covers” because you are not willing to look at it.

You have sustained this ego, this fear, this suffering, this false “me.” When you stop running away, stop denying it, it’s when acceptance begins to take place. You begin to assume the posture of contemplation, which is your natural position of disidentification, of not mistaking yourself for what feelings, sensations and thoughts "say" to you. So this "monster," this "usurper" self-created by your thoughts and by bodily sensations vanishes. This monster keeps you separate from the Realm of Silence, Peace, Freedom, Joy. This is so because it has never been real, in reality.

So, start embracing this "monster" and say, "Okay! You are welcome. Let me look at you." No matter how big this "snake" is or how scary it seems to be. No matter how many claws this "monster" has, nor what it looks like ... When no part of this "snake" or "monster" is hidden anymore, there is not any part in you that can be attached to or identified with anymore.

The illusion is the blindness that keeps you connected to the "monster." Because of unconsciousness, lack of attention and lack of Meditation, you are sustaining it. In India, they call this "monster," this "snake" as the "illusion of ignorance."

So, you need to get out under the "cover", to get out of your imaginary attempt to escape, and look at it. That's the secret! This is only possible in this approach of acceptance, of contemplation. In this way, you will be returning to your natural position, to the Heart, and leaving the mind. Even if the body still feels something, there will be no more appreciation of the story, of thoughts. What the body is feeling will soon disappear too, because it will not be reinforced. There won’t be this connection with the "monster" any longer. Thought, emotion, perception or feeling will have been broken.

Can you see that? Homework for you! You can practice this moment by moment, and you will have plenty of opportunities to practice this disidentification, to look patiently at yourself, at your reactions, feelings, sensations, perceptions, at every story created by this imaginary, illusive entity that seems to be following you, that seems to be in your "room." While, in reality it is you who follow it, who sustain it, who make it so frightening, so dangerous.

Why is what I am telling you so effective? Because what can be seen is not you. If you can see something, you can disidentify from it , and that's your work. If you can see it, you can let it go.

I will repeat it: you will not kill the "monster." You will not kill the "snake," the ego, because there is no ego, no snake, no "monster" to die. When there are no hidden parts there - no thought, no emotion, no sensation, no perception, no fear, no anxiety, and so on - then none of that can touch you anymore. You are this Presence, this Consciousness, this Absolute Reality dwelling in the Kingdom of Happiness, Freedom, Peace, Joy, Intelligence.

* Online meeting transcription, originally held on January 28th, 2019. Online meetings every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 10 pm Local Time: Brazil BRT, except during retreat periods. For more information about Paltalk app and how to participate, please access: http://mestregualberto.com