The ego puts you at the center of the universe. After the ego settles in, you are enslaved by the time, since you start living within a story. Would you like to hear about it? This is my specialty: to show you what the ego has been doing in human history, in your history. As a matter of fact, history is only present in the ego.
To put an entity in the center is a work of the illusion. The false identity is centered in a universe created by itself. The ego establishes itself in the center of this imaginary universe, separate from everything and enslaved by time – it creates the time and a story. These are your conditionings: hurts, resentments, irritations, frustrations, hopelessness ... The positive side includes: enthusiasm, excitements, hope ... This personality lives in its dreams, fears, desires and under all kinds of pressures.
The ego creates a constant torrent, an enormous, extraordinary volume of mental structures. At the center of this structure, mind sits like a king and calls itself "I am." The first name is "I," the second, "am." Then, after this "I am," the ego assumes several pseudonyms: "I can," "I have," "I want," "I do," "I control," "I accomplish…" They are pseudonyms of this "I am."
This conditioning is present since childhood. The result is you seated here, having great difficulty in following a speech like this, resisting, interpreting, judging, evaluating, seeing if it is right or wrong, if it fits your program, your conditioning background, if you can accept or reject it...
The truth is that this "I am," this king, has taken this position since childhood, and you have been so entangled in that! You assume that as real in such a limited and mediocre way! Thus, "this king is who you are." This is an insidious assumption, and you are in love with that! This king takes the place of honor, he is proud, he speaks on your behalf, he feels on your behalf, he wishes on your behalf… as a matter of fact, you do not know what is your name, but this false identity has already assumed the "I am" and it passes for you.
Since childhood you have already been involved and attached to it, growing up with this warlike arsenal to defend yourself from enemy's attacks; a self-defense arsenal to protect yourself from imaginary enemies. The ego, without questioning, assumes to be who you are. So, it assumes the place of honor, thinking, feeling, talking, acting, choosing, resolving, growing up, then dating, getting married, having kids... It loves to procreate, loves to perpetuates itself through its offspring. It adopts a voice, a way, an appearance and begins to make decisions and to protect itself. It has an arsenal to defend itself by counterattacking the imaginary enemies life presents. Life is hostile, the existence is too hostile to the ego. The ego feels offended, yet it has a huge self-defense arsenal! Each day, the ego develops new plans, self-defense and counterattack forms to protect itself from the hostile condition it lives in.
You find out through existence, in life, how this structure moves, how it is shaped and created. You also find out how to get rid of it. You do not learn this from others; you learn it through self-observation, investigating yourself moment by moment. Even because you are the result of thousand years of "human consciousness evolution."
Do not hear to this speech passively. Listen and observe the passion you carry since childhood.
The ego even adopts that voice and places itself at the highest level, from where it begins to make decisions. As a matter of fact, it has discovered: "I can think," "I can do," "I can accomplish." Your ego does not care about what it creates in the form of thought. It says it is going to do something only verbally; it is just a thought being expressed. But its control is so sovereign that it does not respect even its own-created thoughts, and soon you find yourself acting by force of habit. "I am going to stop suffering" – that's just a thought. The force of habit of suffering does not respect the thought “I will stop suffering.”
This pretentious king sitting on the throne is controlling this universe. He is in total control! He does not have the real power he attributes himself, but he assumes that; he has the strength to assume that. Thought says, "I will no longer feel guilty," "I will not miss you anymore." It is like saying, "I am going to lose weight" or "I am not going to drink anymore." This is just a thought. This false king, with a false seal, is administrating and well prepared for his enemies; He has an extraordinary self-defense arsenal.
Look at yourself, look at what thought creates internally, look at the abundance of images thought creates, producing all kinds of conflict and suffering, that you cannot get rid of just through a thoughtful decision. Do you know why? Because this false king has been dominating, has been controlling, has been reigning over this universe he has built. It has been like that since childhood.
You have thousands of thoughts every day. Your hand does not care about what your mind thinks. Your mouth does not care about what your thought says regarding the effect of excess pasta or carbohydrate intake. This king does not carry the royal seal, nor does he have the power he attributes to himself; but he assumes an extraordinary power that you can never underestimate.
What subtlety is that? What skill is that? What power is that? Why does the ego take so much control? Because that place is occupied! A place that is not easily visible. The ego is in control!
Your thoughts, your emotions, your sensorial experiences are happening and being determined or controlled by this strong and imperious will – the will of "me." And why is this place not seen? Because it is invisible. The ego, the "me," resides in the invisible place, assuming your place. What can be seen in this place is an oppressor king, a dictator, a throne usurper, creating and upholding a story.
The place of Reality, of Consciousness, is invisible, or rather, not easily visible, since this internal will has been governed, since childhood, by this throne usurper, this false king. The ego takes place there. You do not know who You are because you do not see your place. So, there is no Truth in command; there is only a tyrannical will of a throne usurper king in power.
The thought says "I will go" and disguises itself as being the source of Intelligence, Wisdom, Consciousness. It takes over this place saying, "I will," "I want," "I don't want," "I like," "I don't like." A freak! The ego is an aberration connected to a completely mistaken reference.
Your True Self, your True Being, your True Consciousness, does not act by will. There is such an excellent Intelligence, of such a mysterious quality that everything happens without any effort, without any volition, without any intention, any desire or fear. Your Being carries this Beauty, but that aberration does not! That aberration only creates confusion, disorder, it messes everything up, it falsifies everything, the most beautiful feelings, the most beautiful expressions of thought within that Intelligence.
This aberration falsifies everything, makes you mediocre, unhappy, complexed, traumatized, symptomatic, miserable beings, making use of this self-defense arsenal, attacking all the time and defending itself against one or more imaginary enemies, in a hostile life, in a suffering existence. All of this lies in that “person´s posture or attitude.” This Intelligence, this Beauty is usurped by the ego, so there is an aberration of intelligence, an aberration of beauty, an aberration of consciousness. The ego is a false self-reference working with pretensions, always hiding, defending itself and resisting.
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