When you search outside, you forget who You are.

In these meetings I am pointing out What I consider as the foremost thing, and it is not the talking itself. Your experience with the world of the senses, with the sensorial world, is the experience the mind knows and appreciates. You have such an education, such a bias that forces you to look at the outside world, at the world of the senses. My emphasis in these meetings is always to point out what I consider as the foremost thing: your own recognition, What you are inside; not the experience you know, but the Nature where those experiences are arising from, where they are appearing… The Nature of the experience itself, this Consciousness that You are.

Your whole existential frustration is bolstered by the orientation you have been experiencing through the senses. In other words: you are forgetting who you are and you are mistaking yourself for the experiences of the senses. All that matters to the egoic mind is the experience of the senses. So, if you observe it thoroughly, you notice you get very impressed by what you see, by what you listen to, by you touch, by what you perceive. The sensorial perception is something very important to you and is always at the service of an ego identity, of the person you believe to be. So, you are unable to see from the viewpoint of What you are. You see from the mind’s point of view; you hear, you speak, you touch, you feel from the mind´s standpoint... Here I mean this separatist mind, this egoic mind.

That is why your life lacks beauty, as it lacks depth. The person’s nature is superficial. It is the ego’s nature. No matter how pretty the things are in your surroundings, you remain shallow, considering others as people. You talk to people as if you were a person. You listen to someone as if you were “someone” too. So, all your contact with the external world is only a consequence of that internal superficiality of the egoic mind, because there is no depth, and when there is no depth, there is no Wealth, there is no Grace, there is no Beauty, there is no Truth.

It works like this: you see yourself as someone and you want to be fulfilled by others; you want to find wealth in others, depth in others, fulfillment, happiness... You want to experience love, you want to experience freedom, but always in relation to others. What do we do in these meetings called Satsang? We investigate the illusory nature of this "me" you believe to be, a fundamental thing, as it immediately frees you of expectations to attain any kind of fulfillment in the "outside world”. The ego lives in a very needy, frightened, dependent... quite unhappy way. It needs appreciation, recognition, love coming from others - always from there into here, from the outside into the inside. It is a constant search for being someone to others. This is the nature of the ego and you got to go beyond that, beyond this illusion of being this someone that has caused your life to be so superficial. The consequence to all this, to this lack of depth, is boredom, loneliness, depression, anxiety, shyness and all other forms of fear.

One fundamental thing you need to realize how to feel Love independent of others, how to reach Peace independent of others, how to attain Freedom independent of others. In order to do that, you need to get rid of the mind, to abandon those images the mind produces all the time in your head on who he or she is to you. You cannot depend on it! Only then, you will begin to be serious about yourself, to enjoy Life as it is.

You need to look at what is happening at this moment, without mistaking yourself for it or getting impressed by it, without a romantic appeal to life with the belief that something or someone in the outside would provide you what you already have therein. When you search outside, you forget Who You Are. When you begin to listen to me, I “demolish” your relationships, because I want you to find Love in yourself. Only then, you can go outwardly and then date, marry, have children, friends, since nothing else can make you suffer anymore, especially boyfriends, friends, husbands, children... What you call as "my world", the story of a character you believe you are.

"You need to look at what is happening at this moment, without mistaking yourself for it or getting impressed by it, without a romantic appeal to life with the belief that something or someone in the outside would provide you what you already have therein. When you search outside, you forget Who You Are."

Is it hard to get this?

In this history lies your misery, not your happiness. First, you realize yourself and the Happiness, and then you look outwardly. This is completely different from what you have learned. You have heard phrases like "you will never be happy if you do not make others happy!" This is a lie! You are not here to make the world happy. You are here to realize there is no world and, therefore, there are no others, but You. Your liberation and happiness are the world’s liberation and the world’s happiness. However, the world and the others are not separate from You. Therefore, when you realize Happiness you realize who You are, not what others are. This way of thinking "the others and I" is totally wrong, pure duality.

The mind lives constantly connected to this imagination. This creates your dream, the dream of your life, this ego identity history, the person with a name, a father, a mother (or that had one once), with brothers, friends... The person has so many things and lives deeply entangled in the midst of everything he or she has. The person lives worried, scared, in jealousy, and strives to control, to hold and to protect things in the attempt to avoid the unhappiness of the loss.

To be someone, to see yourself as someone, is very miserable. When you see yourself as “someone”, there is always something new coming into your life, and this "new thing" gets old, so you want to replace it by something new, which later on you will wish to replace again, as it gets old too... and therefore, there is no freedom. In Satsang, I invite you to disappear, to be only What you were born to be. So, everything is already gone and curiously everything is already present! Here is a different "math": when you have nothing, you have everything. In the ego, in the mind, the “math” is different: you have everything, but you have nothing, since you do not have yourself. It is very miserable to be someone …

OK? That’s all for now! Namaste!

* Online meeting transcription, originally held on August 11, 2017. First published in Portuguese on September 19, 2017. -Online meetings every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 10 pm Local Time: Brazil BRT, except during Retreat periods. For more information about Paltalk app and how to participate, please visit: http://mestregualberto.com