What should be your work? What do you need to find out? You need to find out just one thing: who you are. Any interest you have in the world is illusory, since you do not have to find out what the world is. When you are in a room with other people, they all have a perception of that room. It is clear everyone perceives it differently, and what holds for the room is also applied to any form of perception you have of your world. So, wherever you are, you have a perception of the world around you, and so do other people there. Let’s take the example of a room with five people inside having their perception about it. Is it the same room? There is only one room, but there are different points of view. Then, is it the same room? What about your world? Is it, in fact, the world? Do you see the same thing he or she sees? Are you living in the same world like them? Is it the same world?
So, let us see how that sense of separation is created. What is the structure of the sense of a “me” present there? A particular point of view. Are you always the same person to everybody? That person you know, does everybody know him or her in the same way? Do you see yourself always as the same person? Point of view!
So, how do we build the illusion of a sense of separation? Particularizing the experience. Then, what is that false “me,” how is it created? Interpretation, particularization, point of view, choosing in what to believe, to feel, to perceive.
What is the “person,” the sense of “me”? The particularization of the mind, the vanity of the thought you “buy.” It is only one world, but several points of view, and when you choose one of them, you particularize a perception and contract yourself, and so you live “your world,” but it is false. Each one has his or her world, and it does not match the Reality of Life as it is.
So, how do we create the false identity? By making choices – choosing what to feel, to think, to wish and to not wish… “I want my birthday party!” But no one is interested in it, because everyone is attached to their points of view; everyone is living in their private world. But the expectation of the birthday party is already inside you. What holds for the birthday also applies to any form of desire. The birthday comes and you, in your world, are expecting a lot of applause, a lot of people saying "happy birthday," but they do not remember you. You are contracted in your world, waiting for the world to appreciate yourself, but people are expecting the same thing, and that is the contraction of the false identity, the false “me.”
You expect that from your husband, from your son, from your boss... You are in your private world, craving for attention, so you are in contraction. If you are in contraction, the world is hostile since it does not match “your reality.” That is very basic! That is your false "me" in the face of the Reality of "non-me."
So, once more: how do we create that false identity? It grows out of points of view, choices, ideas and the self-image you want others to see. Then, what is it made of? Ideas, images, beliefs, choices, desires, rejections, predilections. When the illusion is created, what does it cause? Contraction. “Life, the world, he or she, is hostile, everything is wrong! I have to end it all because I cannot take this suffering anymore, this contraction!” Is that true? Do you really want to end this? No! You want to change the objects.
You carry this “sense of me” since childhood, and that has not finished yet, since you never wanted to finish with that indeed, as it would mean the end of the illusion of the false “me,” of the choices, of what you want people to think about you. You do not want to finish that! You see it as normal, natural – to live being loved and despised, to love again and to be despised again; or willing to be loved, but being despised, willing to love without being accepted. You live in this game!
You feel yourself loved, and therefore you are so happy, but in the upcoming moment you are rejected, and so you are sad! You switch between states of happiness and sadness, happiness and depression. When you are depressed, you say: “I do not want that anymore, I am going to end this now; I do not want to hear from her anymore, because she does not see how important, beautiful and wonderful I am… I need to find someone who can give me that.” Or you can say: “I had all these children and I am too old to be mother now, but in another life, I will have more children and they will love me. These came out with defects, but next time I will get it right. I will carry on with this task. I will marry again; I will have another husband and he will be the one who will see me. So, I will have children with him and they will be wonderful! One day it will happen!” You want your children, husband or boyfriend to change to appreciate yourself. You do not want to abandon the point of view; you only want to change your boyfriend, your children, your family, that is, you want to change the point of view.
So, do you want to renounce the point of view or to change it? Do you want to give up on that relationship you have with this or that person, with the family, or do you want to abandon the illusion of a “me” in that relation? Do you really think the problem lies in life, in others, in the world?
So, abandon the world and others, but do it for real and not to replace them. You say: “I want to end it all!” So, end it all indeed and let the world in peace! Throw a “bomb” and “blow up” this world! The point is to give up on the illusion you are present in the experience. The problem is not the “room,” but the points of view each one has with regards to it.
Actually, what is not solved internally is the decision to stop interfering in Life as it is being presented, clinging to your judgments, opinions and beliefs.
Therefore, it is one “room,” but several private viewpoints. Here, you give up and you really put an end to all this when you abandon the illusion of being “someone” in the experience of looking at life, at others and at the world. My work is for you to be suspicious of what you feel, what you think and what you choose. Your relation with life should be objective, practical, intelligent! If you fall into the trap of trying to "feel" others, the world and what happens, you will be on journey in a subjective, egoic world. This is the ego's addiction – feeling, thinking and drawing conclusions about life. You learn that the more you feel the Divine Truth, the less real is the subjective feeling of the relationship with the world.
People are very sentimental, romantic, sensitive, not practical about life, and this behavior strengthens this false center. You need to investigate that internally, how romantic, sentimental, sensitive, insecure, needy, precarious and not practical you are. You are not practical with regards to life’s businesses and to the demands of existence; you are constantly cultivating a subjective world of beliefs, feelings, emotions, experiences and sensations. So, be practical, objective. Otherwise, you will be stuck to the psychological subjectivity of demanding the world, life and the “room” to be as you wish.
Can you see what I am saying? When I say you are too romantic, sentimental, sensitive, not practical and not objective, can you understand what I am saying? Can you see the demands based on ideas, beliefs, conclusions, desires and choices that you have internally?
So, let us see how that sense of separation is created. What is the structure of the sense of a “me” present there? A particular point of view. Are you always the same person to everybody? That person you know, does everybody know him or her in the same way? Do you see yourself always as the same person? Point of view!
So, how do we build the illusion of a sense of separation? Particularizing the experience. Then, what is that false “me,” how is it created? Interpretation, particularization, point of view, choosing in what to believe, to feel, to perceive.
What is the “person,” the sense of “me”? The particularization of the mind, the vanity of the thought you “buy.” It is only one world, but several points of view, and when you choose one of them, you particularize a perception and contract yourself, and so you live “your world,” but it is false. Each one has his or her world, and it does not match the Reality of Life as it is.
So, how do we create the false identity? By making choices – choosing what to feel, to think, to wish and to not wish… “I want my birthday party!” But no one is interested in it, because everyone is attached to their points of view; everyone is living in their private world. But the expectation of the birthday party is already inside you. What holds for the birthday also applies to any form of desire. The birthday comes and you, in your world, are expecting a lot of applause, a lot of people saying "happy birthday," but they do not remember you. You are contracted in your world, waiting for the world to appreciate yourself, but people are expecting the same thing, and that is the contraction of the false identity, the false “me.”
You expect that from your husband, from your son, from your boss... You are in your private world, craving for attention, so you are in contraction. If you are in contraction, the world is hostile since it does not match “your reality.” That is very basic! That is your false "me" in the face of the Reality of "non-me."
So, once more: how do we create that false identity? It grows out of points of view, choices, ideas and the self-image you want others to see. Then, what is it made of? Ideas, images, beliefs, choices, desires, rejections, predilections. When the illusion is created, what does it cause? Contraction. “Life, the world, he or she, is hostile, everything is wrong! I have to end it all because I cannot take this suffering anymore, this contraction!” Is that true? Do you really want to end this? No! You want to change the objects.
You carry this “sense of me” since childhood, and that has not finished yet, since you never wanted to finish with that indeed, as it would mean the end of the illusion of the false “me,” of the choices, of what you want people to think about you. You do not want to finish that! You see it as normal, natural – to live being loved and despised, to love again and to be despised again; or willing to be loved, but being despised, willing to love without being accepted. You live in this game!
You feel yourself loved, and therefore you are so happy, but in the upcoming moment you are rejected, and so you are sad! You switch between states of happiness and sadness, happiness and depression. When you are depressed, you say: “I do not want that anymore, I am going to end this now; I do not want to hear from her anymore, because she does not see how important, beautiful and wonderful I am… I need to find someone who can give me that.” Or you can say: “I had all these children and I am too old to be mother now, but in another life, I will have more children and they will love me. These came out with defects, but next time I will get it right. I will carry on with this task. I will marry again; I will have another husband and he will be the one who will see me. So, I will have children with him and they will be wonderful! One day it will happen!” You want your children, husband or boyfriend to change to appreciate yourself. You do not want to abandon the point of view; you only want to change your boyfriend, your children, your family, that is, you want to change the point of view.
So, do you want to renounce the point of view or to change it? Do you want to give up on that relationship you have with this or that person, with the family, or do you want to abandon the illusion of a “me” in that relation? Do you really think the problem lies in life, in others, in the world?
So, abandon the world and others, but do it for real and not to replace them. You say: “I want to end it all!” So, end it all indeed and let the world in peace! Throw a “bomb” and “blow up” this world! The point is to give up on the illusion you are present in the experience. The problem is not the “room,” but the points of view each one has with regards to it.
Actually, what is not solved internally is the decision to stop interfering in Life as it is being presented, clinging to your judgments, opinions and beliefs.
Therefore, it is one “room,” but several private viewpoints. Here, you give up and you really put an end to all this when you abandon the illusion of being “someone” in the experience of looking at life, at others and at the world. My work is for you to be suspicious of what you feel, what you think and what you choose. Your relation with life should be objective, practical, intelligent! If you fall into the trap of trying to "feel" others, the world and what happens, you will be on journey in a subjective, egoic world. This is the ego's addiction – feeling, thinking and drawing conclusions about life. You learn that the more you feel the Divine Truth, the less real is the subjective feeling of the relationship with the world.
People are very sentimental, romantic, sensitive, not practical about life, and this behavior strengthens this false center. You need to investigate that internally, how romantic, sentimental, sensitive, insecure, needy, precarious and not practical you are. You are not practical with regards to life’s businesses and to the demands of existence; you are constantly cultivating a subjective world of beliefs, feelings, emotions, experiences and sensations. So, be practical, objective. Otherwise, you will be stuck to the psychological subjectivity of demanding the world, life and the “room” to be as you wish.
Can you see what I am saying? When I say you are too romantic, sentimental, sensitive, not practical and not objective, can you understand what I am saying? Can you see the demands based on ideas, beliefs, conclusions, desires and choices that you have internally?
*Online meeting transcription originally held on June 7th, 2020 on Zoom app – First published in Portuguese on November 5th, 2020. For further information about our meetings, please click here.
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