Your primary desire is for the world to not be a burden and hostile. You want the world to understand you, to live surrounded by people who understand you, and it seems their job is to be nice to you, to make you happy. You behave like a driver at the steering wheel, as if you were driving a car; you apply that to life and it does not work. The drivers must drive the car, otherwise they will not reach their destination. You feel like that in existence – sitting before the “steering wheel” and making use of your knowledge to “drive the car.” Is it so?
Then, you come to Satsang and I say, “Leave the driver's seat! Take any seat in the car, but leave the driver's seat!” You believe the car will not move that way or if it does, you will have an accident, provided that you are not the one driving it. However, when you come to me, the first thing I try to show you is the importance of not trusting in yourself, and that is the opposite of everything you have learned and still learn out there, since everybody stimulates you, gives you self-esteem. I do not give you self-esteem, my speech does not have this purpose, it does not give you confidence, certainty, security, nor does it say that you are in control. So, what are you doing there in front of the "steering wheel?"
Here, if you get out of the driver's seat, if you leave the steering wheel, you are no longer the “guide” of your experiences, of your existence, no longer the one who drives and knows where to go. Being out of the "driver's seat," you find out what I have called Meditation. Meditation is no longer guiding, leading, giving direction to your "vehicle," to your experiences, to your comforts and discomforts, projects, dreams and no longer trying to get away from misfortune, vicissitudes and adversities. If you believe you are driving this "vehicle," this life, this existence, all you will experience will be disappointment, since things will never happen as you expect, desire, project, yearn.
You will not reach the destination, since it is an ideological projection, that is, ideas behind this "your destination." Only when you leave the “driver's seat” you find out that Life does not need you. It is absurd, I know... You come to Satsang and in my speeches you find out the opportunity to be fearless, that means confronting yourself without fear, confront with what appears even noticing all that insecurity. A voice comes and says: “Leave the 'driver’s seat,’ you can’t drive this 'your car'."
I know this sounds crazy since it is the opposite of everything you have heard until today, but when you abandon the "driver's seat," you find out Life can drive Itself. Actually, Life has always been on the steering wheel, Life has never left the steering wheel in your hands. Your hands have never been on the steering wheel indeed. You have never been seated in this place you believe you are, driving, leading and controlling.
Welcome to Satsang! This is the encounter with Love! Yes, it is the encounter with Love, and Love has no agenda, does not know if it is September, October, November... Love has nothing else to do but to "burn" everything! You know fire burns everything, but it does not burn itself – it is Love. You are afraid to take on this Natural State of Wisdom that represents not being in control, not trying to drive the experiences. You are frightened just by hearing the possibility of not controlling anything else. However, this fear is just a lack of investigation, since deep down, you have never controlled anything at all! So, this thing of "shifting gears, turning corners, looking at the rearview mirror and ahead" never really existed. You were never there! So, you should not be frightened of embracing the Truth, the Wisdom; you should not be scared when someone says to you, "Leave that imaginary steering wheel."
What really matters to me is not if you are hearing this, but rather if you are living It! Life is what happens by itself, nobody is at the steering wheel. Life is comprised in this Love that burns everything but does not burn Itself, like the fire. When you are open to Love, willing to no longer mistake yourself for this absurd belief of being in control, of having the ability to drive and lead, then Life becomes Magical.
However, I do not mean magic like when an elephant disappears from the stage or when the hidden card is revealed. I mean the Magic not related to any illusion’s strategy, to any illusionism trick.
Life becomes Magical in that Extraordinary Love, in that Fire of Divine Consciousness. Life becomes Magical in a such a way that the mind would never be able to dream about and the greatest illusionists would never be able to create. Life is not a trick. Life is a Mystery where there is a present Magic. Life is flowing, and you do not know and will never know where Life will lead you, since Life leads Itself.
You are Life, not a uniformed driver, driving oneself or others to somewhere. The fact is that people put so much attention on these worldly beliefs – like this ordinary belief of being able to lead, to drive, to control – that they are overwhelmed by fears and caring measures, instead of striving themselves to find Life’s Magic, the Beauty of this Mystery, of this Fire that burns everything but itself. So, there is no Wisdom, since there is no Truth, and there is no Truth since you do not abandon this belief of being able to control.
Not being in the steering wheel, in control, in this condition of illusory control, is what I have called as Real Meditation. Meditation means not controlling, driving or leading your experiences. This false interpretation people have may seem like a misunderstanding and quite innocent, but it entails a severe consequence there. All your burdens, all your lack of lightness lies in this impossible attempt of driving, leading and controlling. The safe measure for this is the end of the futile, useless and unnecessary attempt to make things work out. This is the cause of fear, this is non-trust, non-surrender, non-Meditation. The right action to That is to live without thinking, to live without past and future – that is what thought produces – and to live without these characters surrounding you, that you keep trying to please.
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