Everything you do "as a person" is the result of ignorance, mediocrity, stupidity and restriction. Everything the "person" acquires is to bring more problems, not peace. You have children and face difficulties in raising and educating them. You find a husband or boyfriend to suffer the pain of separation, the pain of betrayal, the pain of rejection. Everything you do in the ego is to be miserable!
If you write in pages of a notebook, all the joys and complications the objects you own have brought you, you'd see what I am saying. Objects bring more problems than joy. They bring more worry than comfort.
However, this is misinterpreted since in your mind, you believe you have to get rid of the world. I want to make it very clear to you that the problem is not in objects, but rather in the subject, in this false sense of "me" present in the experience.
For example, it seems like a very simple thing to be sitting on the couch at home. You don't realize how scared you are that someone else takes that seat, that someone literally takes your seat. You arrive home, open the door and find another girl sitting on your couch. Or another boy or even a neighbor's son sitting on your couch. It's not your child sitting there. It's your neighbor's child! Do you have a problem with the couch? No, but you find a woman sitting on the couch at your house… "Who is this woman? Where did she come from? Hey, this is my couch!"
The problem is not with the sofa. It is not with that woman. You didn't know, but that woman was your husband's sister, who you didn't know. But a million things went through your mind until you understood it was just your husband's sister who has just arrived for a visit. Until you understand this, enormous suffering has already occurred internally!
Just getting the news that someone very close and dear has died, you immediately begin to suffer. But ten minutes later, the real news arrives: they changed the names. It wasn't that person who died, it was someone else! It was ten minutes of suffering for someone you believed to have died, but who, in fact, is still very much alive!
Do you see how the mind works? So, the problem is not objects. It's not the world around you. It's not that girl who sat on your sofa. It's not the sofa you have at home. It's not the house, the dog, or the son… These are just unimportant objects! It's your ego that gives importance to them.
Personality lives under restrictions and gives identity to experiences. So, you live in a bad mood, stressed, angry, upset, anguished, because there is a psychological demand. "Person" demands his world to be the way he wishes. This is living "as a person." Do you see? How are you going to find Beauty this way? If you want to find Beauty, Truth, Love, and Real Peace, you have to abandon the "person." Then, life becomes a celebration, a divine holy feast. Otherwise, you can't live that.
You need to find in your Being a real relationship with what is around you. You don't have this when your mind is attached to objects. When you don't see the fear of losing. When you don't accept the freedom of letting go. When you hold to control. When, for example, you want to first understand to trust – "I need to understand what the master says to trust him." This is the same as saying "I need to understand what Life represents to accept It as It is." This is not possible, but it's the "person's" demand.
Then, I ask you: how will it be possible for Happiness to arrive? When will this happen? How will the real relationship with Love take place if Love is attached to objects? Love is something internal. Love cannot be linked to objects. If there is something attached to objects, this is not Love. It's desire. It's attachment.
When I came across my Master, I realized that the main thing was to trust. It wasn't questioning. It was trusting Him. It wasn't doubting. It was trusting Him. It wasn't arguing with Him. It was trusting Him. He had a look I didn't have. He had a Silence I didn't have and a Peace I didn't have. I only had This when I was close to Him, with my heart turned to Him. So, I soon realized I didn't need to understand Him. Listen to this carefully. Yesterday, I heard someone saying here: "Sometimes I trust, sometimes I don't." This is something you have to look at internally. It has nothing to do with the external world. It has to do with this false center of "person," of "personality," in which you believe.
This is what you have to doubt, not Life, not the Guru since Life came before you. You're just dust! When dust rises, where does it go? Dust rises and disappears! You're dust in the wind... Dust rises and disappears, and the wind is still there. Existence is the wind, you are the dust. You want to distrust things, being dust in the wind you can't control. Being the dust you are, you go by so fast and want to be suspicious of the wind that's out there doing everything the way it wants.
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