Ok, very well! I want to talk to you a little more about this issue of inner conflict and suffering. This is a subject that I think is extremely important for us to study here, to look at it very closely, to investigate it closely. There is only one way to approach this: it is through understanding ourselves. It is our mind that needs to be understood, it is this inner movement in us that needs to be seen. So, there is nothing more relevant to you in this life than understanding the Truth about yourself. For that we need something like a brand-new mind.
I have been talking to you here on this channel – and also in online meetings and in-person meetings – about this extremely important subject. I refer to a mind free of conflict and therefore free from any and all forms of suffering. Therefore, we need to find out what it’s like to have a mind psychologically free of the past and internally free of that model of thinking that builds time – that present, past and future. We place ourselves as a present entity within this, time and this is where all the conflict in us lies, the suffering in us, because there is an illusion present in this way of approaching ourselves to the experiences of that instant. We are approaching it based on memories, on recollections, and remembrances. To look at it, to approach it, is truly learning about ourselves, learning about who we are, learning the Truth about ourselves. This is extremely important. We can't learn that from somebody, we can't find out something about it by listening to a speech like that. Therefore, the fundamental thing for you in this life is to study yourself, and only you can do that, only you can have that direct look at everything that goes on, here and now, inside you.
One of the things we didn't learn as a kid was to learn. We don't know how to learn. What we call “learning” is the fruit, it is the result of accumulated knowledge, that is what we call “learning”, “being learning.” Here I am referring to learning here and now. There is only this moment to learn. Learning this moment is to learn what that moment represents, without accumulation, without keeping the memory, the remembrance, the experience of it; therefore, it is an active learning, in that instant, in that moment. There is no accumulation, there is no experience being stored, there is no memory, there is no remembrance.
Learning about yourself is Self-Awareness, understanding yourself, here and now, whatever is going on internally and externally. Our conflicts in life are not only external – we have problems in our relationships with people, also with situations, and circumstances that occur to us, that happen to us –, but we also have internal conflicting situations, we also carry these internal conflicts, so we have the conflict of thought, of internal contradiction – we feel one thing, desire another and do another, it is contradiction, it is an internal disorder, it is an internal conflict.
So, we have the external conflicts of our lives and we have the internal conflicts. The external ones are in our relationships with people and situations, and the internal ones are those that concern that internal movement of contradictory thought, of fear, of desire, of some form of internal conflict, of internal contradiction. We need to learn about it, learn to observe it, what it means to apprehend, what it means. Only when we can learn about it, understand this inner movement in us, can we get rid of it, get rid of it.
So, I have been talking here – I have been emphasizing a lot with you – the beauty, the importance of remaining internally free from all forms of conflict and therefore from all forms of suffering. Thus, our relationship with the “other” or with the world, with situations, with events, with happenings, will be something entirely new and different. Our relationship with this internal movement of thoughts, desires, fears, and psychological disorders all undergo a profound and significant change when you understand this internal and external movement of conflict and suffering. So, learning about ourselves is the basis for a free life, without it we don't have the slightest chance to understand ourselves in relation to the world, in relation to the “other,” in relation to life. So, this contradiction, this conflict, and this suffering is always sustained, all because we don't learn to learn.
Our life today is the result of everything we “learned,” in that traditional, common, usual way in which we use that word, that is, accumulating experiences, knowledge, remembrances, and memories. So, the result of that is a narrow, limited mind, an old mind, a mind stuck in a pattern of repetition, continuation, continuity – this I have called psychological conditioning. This has been our present life condition, because we lack this art of learning about ourselves here and now. Learning without this accumulation, in that moment, in that instant. This look at what is going on, letting go, giving up, letting loose this internal condition that has generated contradictions, conflicts, and suffering in our lives, which is to always live sustaining the idea of “someone” present here, in this moment, moving in this moment based on that structure, which is the structure of thought. A thought that has a continuity in that time: present, past, and future, then this thought is a psychological condition of existence for this “I.” Thus, this model of psychological thought, of psychological memory, of internal programming, of the existence of the “I”, is something that needs to be seen, observed, understood. This is the real learning about ourselves, so we have the possibility to go beyond this narrow, limited mind, stuck in this program, this condition of “I” identity, egoic identity – some call it Spiritual Enlightenment or Awakening of Consciousness.
The life free of this “me” is the life free of this model of time – past, present, and future. The point is that every action that is born from this model does not represent a complete, total action. There is no totality of action in this present moment, when the sense of “I” is translating, interpreting, evaluating, adjusting, or shaping that action in that instant. To follow this, now, here, is fundamental. Follow it up now! All the present action when there is the past, that is, the memory, the remembering, the ideas kept, all this knowledge accumulated as a base, this action is a contradictory action, it is an action in conflict, because it is an action that tries to adjust itself at that moment, at that instant within an already pre-established programming, and that doesn't fit, so there is conflict. And these conflicts are basically suffering in our relationships. I can give you a very practical example of this: in the contact you have with a person, all you have of him is a memory, a memory is an image, it is prior knowledge that you have about him. That “I” condition is basically memory. All this sense of “I” does is store memory, remembrances, images of what “it” goes through; and based on these images, these remembrances, these memories, “it” acts. So, our relationship with the “other,” always based on this “I,” on this “me,” on this ego, is a conflicting relationship.
Human beings do not understand the “other,” however much we have heard throughout human history the importance of “loving your neighbor.” The situation of the “I” is isolationist, the situation of the ego is self-centered and, therefore, based on this background of knowledge, memory, remembrances, and images that are sustained in judgments, in evaluations, in division, in conflict. As long as this remains, there is no “neighbor,” the “other” is just an image, a self-projection of the “I.” Where does love become possible in that? So, what does it mean to love your “neighbor”? Where is the “neighbor” for the self-centered “I”, since all it has of the “other” is an image it projects in its fear, in its ambition, in its envy, in its conflict, in its suffering? A sense of a “me” present here and now is basically conflict, suffering. How can there be love in contact with the “other” if what prevails in this “me,” in this “I,” is envy, ambition, self-centeredness, self-interest, and egocentrism?
Follow this. It’s very clear. When you look at your relationship with the person closest to you, what you perceive is a search for understanding, comprehension, but this is based on remembrance, on memory, on the image you have of the other, so it is an attempt, in fact, of adjustment. This we call “love,” when this “me,” this “I,” this ego adjusts itself to the other. While there is this mutual admiration, appreciation, in this common opinion, evaluation, and judgment, when there is this mutual thing, when there is this exchange of caresses, praise, common opinion, when there is something that interests both in this mutual relationship, what we call “love” is present, when it offers us pleasure, satisfaction, fulfillment; but any change, any representation of contradiction, of conflict, of interests, when this is no longer mutual, when there is no longer this common intention of satisfaction and fulfillment, what we call “love” is no longer love. So, we don't know what it is to love the “neighbor,” because the “neighbor” is a projection of this “I,” it is an idealization of this “me.” While the “other” is important to “me,” that “me” feels good, fulfilled, but when the “other” is no longer important to that “me,” because that “me” feels humiliated, diminished, it is resentful, feeling betrayed, deceived or not accepted in its ideas, opinions and beliefs, when the “other” no longer participates in this, there is no longer any possibility of this relationship. So, what we call “love” is a convenience, it is something that is based on images, on beliefs, on desires, on good will, but all that disappears when the “I,” the “me,” the ego, becomes hurt, excluded, deceived, betrayed.
We need to discover a quality of life in Love. That Love is there when there is that complete action, that total action. This complete, total action is the free action of the “I” and therefore free of the ego. Here lies the importance of discovering what it is to learn about ourselves, here and now, and to let go, to let go of this psychological condition of memory, of a model of psychological thought; if we get rid of all these inner manias, all these images, all these beliefs, all this self-centeredness, then we are facing a mind capable of learning. Learning in that present moment, in that active moment, in that direct learning, we have then a contact with the Reality of That which is beyond the egoic mind, beyond this condition of psychological memory. That’s when that complete action arises in this relationship with the “other.” A relationship on this level, without images, without the desire for reward, without the fear of rejection, without the desire for acceptance, a free action of the “I with the other” is the presence of Love. It is the presence of Love because the “other” is not there as an entity separate from this “me,” because this “me” is not there, this “I” is not there. If there is no “I,” there is no “other,” if there is no “other,” there is the presence of Intelligence, of this Love, of this Truth, that is what is present. So, “to love your neighbor” is to discover that there is no “neighbor,” there is only Love, when the “I” is not there. So, the complete action, the total action, the real action is the action of a new mind, freed from this model that I have been calling psychological time, which is this existence of the “I,” which is this existence of the “me.”
In our meetings, the purpose is to investigate this and discover the art of learning. A new life requires a new mind, a real ability to deal with what happens here and now without that background that is the “I.” So, in that Love there is the Reality of Divine Consciousness, of the Truth of God. It is not “I” loving its neighbor,” it is the Reality of God present without the illusion of separation between this “I” and the “other,” So, I want to invite you to the art of learning to Be, to assume the Reality of Being What you are, here and now, free of the “I.”
Thus, the purpose of these meetings is to explore with you the freedom to Be That which you were born to Be. The Awakening of Consciousness, the Truth of your Being is Spiritual Enlightenment, in it the sense of “I” is not present, and if that is not present, there is no conflict, there is no suffering, there is no longer this narrow, limited mind; and, yes, an entirely new mind where there is Silence, where there is Stillness, it’s only when the Revelation of the Truth of your Being, which is the Truth of God, becomes possible.
It is important to say this here for you: this belief, this idea of “love,” this is not real while suffering is present. People say to each other “Love the other,” “Love your neighbor,” but in the “person,” which is basically the sense of an “I,” of a present egoic identity, this is impossible. Whatever the “I”, the ego seeks when it has good will – and this is for convenience, of course – as long as it suits it, it applies itself to a relationship very willingly, and that is as much as it can give to itself, it is a good will to want, to desire, to idealize love, but basically the “I” is in conflict, the “I” is in suffering, the “I” is in neediness, the “I” is living the illusion of the sense of separation. This “I”, which is this sense of “person”, does not know itself. It is the illusion of an identity present in life, in this moment, in this present experience and, therefore, naturally in conflict, in suffering. And if that is present, Love is impossible, despite all the good will, despite all the desire to love. What we have, at most, in our relationships in the ego is affectivity, affection, and care. This for several reasons, some are declared and others are hidden, but these reasons are always centered in desire, pleasure, or fear and therefore suffering.
The Truth of That which is God, the Truth of That which is your Being, is revealed in this art of Being-Consciousness-Happiness, which is Love. And now we have just seen this, a Love that is born, emerges, awakens, emerges naturally when there is a complete action, a total action, an action free from that background of knowledge, experience, memory, remembrances, and images, which is that false center, which is the “I,” the ego.
We've been using all of that language here on the channel, as well as within all of these meetings, but don’t be stuck in that. We are pointing to Something beyond words and therefore beyond all language. It is possible to discover this directly through self-observation without any idea, without any word, without any image about these words. That’s why I have been emphasizing the importance of True Meditation in practice, because True Meditation in practice naturally involves, within it, this art of learning about yourself, here and now, moment by moment. So, it contains within itself this action free from the ego, a complete action, an action free from this psychological time, from this psychological memory, an action that is the overflow of this Intelligence, this Truth of Being, which is Love.
And here I also want to leave an invitation for you. If this is something that makes sense to you, leave your “like” on this video and subscribe to the channel. I want to remind you: we have online meetings, in person meetings, and also retreats where we are working on this with those who approach.
If that’s something that makes sense, see you in the next one, okay? Thanks for the meeting and until next time.
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