What are we doing together whenever we meet here? We are studying ourselves, working on this discovery about who we are.
And today I’d like to work with you on a very interesting aspect about this person, this me, this “I.” Notice what an interesting thing our inclination is, our interest more in the past or the future than in the present moment, in what is here at this moment. We reject what is here: life – life as it is showing, presenting itself to each one of us – for something that is the future or the past. Both the past and the future are ideas and ideals within us. So, we intend to accomplish something tomorrow or a few years from now. We idealize a change in our lives because we are not happy with what life is showing or presenting to us here and now. So, the intention is in the idea and not in what is here. The idea is that future. Either we want to achieve something in the future or we want to get rid of something, here and now, that we are carrying from our past.
So, our interest is always either in the future or the past, and not in what is here and now. What is here and now proves to be unsatisfactory concerning the lack of something that hasn’t yet arrived, which we transport to the future, something that hasn’t happened, that hasn’t been accomplished, that we want to be accomplished, or the present moment is unsatisfactory because we have something that we want to get rid of.
The fact is that, basically, we are not living in facts, we are living in ideas. The truth of what our egoic mind is – the condition of the “I” – is always the idea of fulfilling ourselves with something tomorrow, or in a little while getting rid of something that we are carrying from the past. The result of this is that we are trading the reality of what is here for the illusion of what thought is introducing as what we must achieve or get rid of. Notice how subtle this movement of the mind is within each one of us. It represents a deep dissatisfaction with life as it appears, as it is for each one of us, here and now, at this moment.
So, there is always this intention, this quest, this search for fulfillment – either the positive fulfillment in the accomplishment of what will come or in the liberation of what we consider negative, which is also showing itself here and now. But our vision is always this: the particular vision of the search for fulfillment. And why do we basically live this way? Because the sense of a present “I” doesn’t support remaining aimless, with no goal, purposeless.
Our life in the ego consists of the movement of the past and future; the present is just a door through which we pass from the past to the future. Then, the movement of the ego is always a search for continuity. It’s a typical characteristic of this movement of thought in us, this search for continuity of the “I.” And this search for continuity of the “I” is the search for this psychological time, this sense of existing, psychologically speaking, that is, in memory. We are trapped in this matter of time within this sense of “I.”
I want to invite you to look at what you are now and perceive this movement of thought in its dissatisfaction, wanting continuity; and to sustain this continuity what it does is to create the future within a project, desire, dream, goal, or creating the past with a certain frustration, disappointment, something that wasn’t complete or not finished and now it needs to finish this and to do this, once again, it needs the movement of the future. It’s always the continuity of the “I.” That “I” is the thought in us, just a movement of thought, of remembrances, of memories, memories projecting themselves, putting the illusion of identity present in it. That entity is the “I,” the “me.”
That feeling in you that you have to be “someone” who is still not happy because something is missing, still not at peace because you haven’t gotten free from something, is an illusion. And we are replacing that illusion with the fact of what is here and now, with this moment that is here and now. This is the fact, the fact is this moment, the Truth reveals itself as a fact at this moment. The Truth of what we are is the understanding of this, which can really break this frustration, pain, and dissatisfaction of the “I” that is always projecting itself.
The truth is that we have been under this illusion for a long time and we’ve never freed ourselves from this “I.” It maintains its continuity by doing just that. The moment you find out how to look at what you have here: the fact, the truth – the fact is what is here… If there is dissatisfaction, it is present here and now; if there is disappointment, it has to do with this moment here; if there is desire, it has to be seen at this moment, here and now. The desire is creating that frustration, dissatisfaction, disappointment, or frustration about something that happened in the past is proving unsatisfactory here and now, at this moment.
The question is: is it possible to learn to deal with this moment without projecting the future, without idealizing liberation of the past? Here, the truth of Self-awareness has you observing this movement of dissatisfaction present, which is the movement of the “I.” We don't look at that movement of the “I.” This movement of the “I” is a thought, a feeling, a sensation, something that shows itself here and now. By getting in touch with this without separating yourself from this experience, this experience comes to be seen as in fact it is showing itself. And what is basically this experience? It is what separates itself as the experience of “someone,” of this “I,” it separates itself as “the experience of this ‘I’.” The illustration of this is very simple: your state, whatever it is here and now, of frustration, fear, or sadness, if there is an existential pain, a pain of loneliness, guilt, or a desire, observe, in this experience there comes the separation between the one who desires and the desired object, there is the separateness, in this experience, from the experience of frustration and from the one who thus feels frustrated. If it’s an emotional disorder causing some state of unhappiness, there’s the state that is the experience and the one who is involved in that state. Then, what do we have in that experience of the two elements of the experience? These two elements of the experience are sustaining this frame, this situation, here and now, at this moment, this is the fact. Thus, we are no longer going into the future, idealizing something different, no longer projecting something new to arrive, or no longer projecting liberation from something that we are bringing from the past. We are now in direct contact with this duality, with this “I” and this frame, this “I” and this “fear,” this “I” and this “sadness,” this “I” and this “frustration,” this “I” and the “existential void.” So, notice, right now you are in direct contact with the sense of the “I” present. That “I” is the one that is separating itself from the experience, wanting to alter, to change, to get rid of, to fulfill itself in some way.
So, looking at this movement of separateness, of duality, not separating yourself from it, but simply and directly observing it, without an ideal, but rather staying with the fact, the truth of the fact of what is here; then, you abandon the illusion of the idea that it is the future to accomplish something or to get rid of something from the past, to achieve something or to get rid of something. You stay with the fact and in that fact the “I” reveals itself as being the thinker, the experiencer, the one who is here separating itself. This separateness is an illusion. When sadness is present, there is no sad “someone” to get rid of the sadness, to create that goal, to achieve liberation from sadness. This is the continuity that the “I” seeks when it wants to get rid of sadness; it separates itself as the sad element. No, there is not this sad element, this “I.” There is only this sadness, this fear, this frustration, or this pain, and when it doesn’t find this separateness, this division, it is seen here and now, without the sense of an “I” present. This becomes possible when you don't impose on this experience – which is this fact present here and now – an experiencer, when you don't impose on the sadness present here “someone” to get rid of it, when you don't impose on this model of anxious, worried thinking, afflictive, when you don't impose on the thinker, then you stay with this here and now. You are left with the fact without the future, the past, and without making this present moment seen as a door with a goal to reach something. So, there is no past, present and future – psychologically speaking. All you have is this moment to deal with what is shown, and what is shown here is the “I,” the “I” seeking continuity, change, and wanting to achieve or to get rid of. To look at it this way is to come closer to Self-awareness, to discover the movement of the “I,” to discover how the mind works, how your emotions, feelings, your perception of reality is always altered by this movement of thought, introducing, putting here, at this moment, an ideal, an objective, a time proposal.
This is how we have created psychological time and the continuity of this “I.” So, for many, many years our life consists of this movement. Dissatisfaction, frustration, desire, fear, sadness, anguish, anxiety, the negative frames of imagination, and all the negativity present in us create states of depression. All these types of things have received continuity in our lives, because that sense of “I” is always projecting something into tomorrow, into the future.
We never look at it here and now, we never observe this “I,” this me, this ego in its movement. Having this look to observe this is possible when you eliminate this duality, this sense of separateness, so you approach what I consider the most important thing for the Realization of God, for the Awakening of Consciousness, for Spiritual Enlightenment, which is to eliminate that illusory separateness between that “I” and its experience, that experiencer and its experience, that thought and the thinker, between the one who feels and the feeling. When you eliminate that separateness, when there is an emptying of it, when that space disappears, when thought is seen without the thinker, when feelings, whether good or bad, are seen without “someone” in them, when in an emotion there is only the emotion, in a thought there is only the thought, in a feeling there is only the feeling, when that sense of duality disappears, this “I,” this “me” who experiences this, this thinker who is thinking about it, the one who feels feeling it, when this separateness dissolves, when this space disappears and what is shown is the Reality of what is, as the fact of this moment, what is here and now when this duality is broken – that sense of separateness is duality.
Our meeting here is to work on Non-duality, the direct Truth of Advaita. The expression “Advaita” means “the one without the second.” There is only one Reality present here and now, as a fact, and this Reality is not the “I.” The “I” is a psychological conditioning, an unconscious movement of the egoic mind. This movement is what has upheld this division, this separateness, and has created in you the sense of present, past and future, psychologically speaking, of “someone” perpetuating itself in time, wanting to maintain itself, to achieve or get rid of. It is this element of thought that is impermanent, forging this identity, this “I” in the form of a thinker, an observer, the one who feels, the sad one, the angry one, the one who is afraid. This “I,” this “me,” is seen within this Self-awareness.
So, looking at what we are, studying ourselves, and observing this movement of the ego is to get rid of this illusion. Then, this puts you in direct contact with the Reality of God, which is your Being, Consciousness, Love, or Happiness, because that sense of “I” – the thinker, the experiencer, the one who feels, fears, who has always separated itself from its experiences to maintain its continuity – is no longer present, when it is seen it disappears, and when it disappears, the experience itself also disappears. So, you are in direct contact with life as it is, here and now.
I’ve called this “the Real experiencing,” experiencing what is; without the element “I” there is no experience, nor the experiencer, there is only experiencing. Then, out of that experiencing comes a free action, a free vision, a free feeling, a free thinking, the sense of “I” is no longer present. All psychological conditioning disappears, because this now is the contact with the Divine Reality, with the Reality of your Being that is here and now. So, all dissatisfaction, all this search for fulfillment and accomplishment is no longer present, because your Natural State of Pure Consciousness is Happiness, Intelligence, it is this action free of the “I,” this speaking, the natural movement of thought, which here I’ve just called “thinking,” the Real thinking, without the element “I.”
So, notice what we are saying to you: here you find yourself with the possibility at this moment to realize the Truth you Are. We were all born to realize this, to assume this Truth, that means being beyond time and thought, beyond the sense of “I,” living this life in absolute reality, in absolute truth.
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