After all, here with you, what we have been talking about concerns the possibility of our Freedom — here, I refer to this internal, psychological Freedom. The Truth about you, your Being, or your Divine Nature is fundamental. What we call “my life” or “our lives” without Realization is suffering. Some of you are searching for something beyond this programming, this condition, this format of “living, feeling, and thinking” of the majority, and there is this quest, this search inside. That’s the search for God, for something beyond the known – and here when we talk about the known, we are literally talking about everything thought encompasses, everything our mind knows.
Everything the mind encompasses or knows is something within this known model, what we call here the mental or egoic consciousness. Our consciousness, your consciousness is actually similar to the consciousness of the rest of humanity. This so-called “my mind” or “my consciousness” carries everything we see in human consciousness. Will it be possible to accomplish anything beyond that? Will it be possible to find anything beyond what we know, what the mind knows, and what this life program has been like over all these years? Will it be possible for us – if you are twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, seventy, or eighty years old, to discover Something entirely new? What we could call a Real Life, a life free from this condition. And what condition is this? It is the condition of the egoic mind. Why do we use the expression “egoic mind”? The mind we know, this egoic mind, is, by nature, separatist, egocentric, and lives within a pattern of egocentrism. Thus, our life revolves around this “I,” “me,” this “person” we believe we are.
The purpose of our meetings here is to investigate this issue of the possibility of a radical and profound change in this structure, in the very nature of this egoic consciousness, which is human consciousness. Over millennia, human beings are conditioned to this programming, this condition of life, of existence. The result of all this is this internal unhappiness present in each of us, so there is this need for something beyond all that, this urgent, pressing quest or search for something beyond this boredom, loneliness, anxiety, fear, depression, and these internal states we know. Although we have enjoyable moments, most of our lives are too delicate and complicated. So, we have moments of pleasure, satisfaction, and fulfillment, at some level within a given relationship, in contact with objects, with people, with situations, and apart from these short, brief moments, which we even consider moments of happiness, most of our lives pass in enormous, extraordinary confusion, great weight, and suffering.
Looking at what we are here and now, observing all this movement of this “I,” this mental, egoic consciousness, brings you closer to a vision of yourself that you’ve never had. Looking at what is shown here as this “I” and being able to abandon, and get rid of it, requires the presence of this psychological death, the death of the illusion of this identity that is not real. The death of the illusion represents the death of the “I,” of the psychological identity we have formed over all these years. An approach to the observation of thought, feeling, emotion, and everything we think and feel can clearly show us this condition of illusory identity, of this false “I” centered on its desires, motives, ambitions, envy, fear, anxieties, concerns, and fears of all kinds. To become aware of this “I,” of the principle of this egoic identity, the egoic mind, this egoic consciousness, is to open oneself to the possibility of a profound and radical transformation.
Getting in touch with what is going on here and now, inside each of us, seeing how we are functioning, what that egoic consciousness, what that egoic mind is, discovering the possibility of abandoning that from ourselves, allowing it to disappear, is something that represents the death of this old “I,” this illusion, this false ego, this so-called “my truth,” which is an illusion.
Here, we work with you on the Truth of your Being, Real Consciousness, What, in fact, is your True Nature, the Divine Nature, the Nature of God. This is what we are looking for, This is What human beings have been searching for thousands and thousands of years; in particular, some of those are looking for This in an honest way, with a deep and true interest in discovering the Truth, which is the Divine Truth, the Truth of God, and if within you there is a search for something else, this speech is for you.
Yes, there is something beyond the mind, beyond the ego, beyond this “me,” this ego-consciousness, this mental consciousness. What constitutes this sense of “person,” of personal identity, is something built over time; so over time, this identity, which is the “I,” emerged – it appears in time, constituted of time. When you have an experience, that experience does not end because you register it, you acquire that knowledge, and now it becomes part of that structure, which is the structure of time.
So, our actions, speeches, behaviors, attitudes, and our entire response to life, in general, are coming from the past because they are coming from this memory, the memory of these experiences, remembrances, recollections, of everything that occurred or happened to us yesterday. We do not allow it to die or disappear; we acquire it, and it starts to be part of this structure, which is the structure of this ego-identity. Here, our meeting is to investigate this illusion – the illusion of this “I.” Here, we investigate the illusion of this ego, this “person” we mistake ourselves for, we believe to be.
What you call “I” is made up of a set of memories, remembrances, recollections, something that comes from the past and that, in fact, gives you an illusory identity, a sense of separateness from life, from the other, from God. Approaching yourself, looking at what is happening here and now, and going beyond this psychological condition of suffering, fear, desires, contradictions, and conflicts. When we get closer and start looking at all that inner movement within each of us. What we need is to learn how to look.
When we start looking, we discover and perceive that what we are looking at does not need to be given the illusion of identity, since it is just a program, a conditioning, a memory, or a remembrance. When we discover that we can live free from that sense of “I” present in this experience of thinking, feeling, and acting, we are before something entirely new, before the presence of the Divine Reality. In this Divine Reality, which is the Reality of God, there is no sense of “I,” there is life happening without this element that separates, divides, judges, compares, evaluates, fears, and desires, that is in a state of psychological unhappiness due to anguish, depression, and anxiety.
So, this life free from the sense of “I” is what happens when you start to observe this inner movement within you. Thus, when we deal here with an approach to the Truth about your Being, we are talking about the Truth of Self-Awareness. When we speak here, in these meetings, of this approach to the Truth of your Being, we are talking about an approach to Self-awareness. It’s when you know yourself, when you realize all the nuances, all that internal movement of contradiction, conflict, thoughts, feelings, and emotions; it’s when you just realize that this is something in you that is always trying to confirm and continue in this illusion of an “I” present within these experiences.
Thought, emotion, or feeling is an experience; we do not need to give identity to it, although that is what we have done. When there is Self-Awareness, there is this clear perception that a life free from the “I” is possible and requires this self-observation. This self-observation puts you before this Self-Awareness, then that moment is the moment of True Meditation.
Meditation is not closing your eyes at certain times of the day, breathing in a certain way, concentrating on some thought, or relaxing your body to quiet or calm your emotions through a technique, a system, or a practice. No, this is not meditation. That can be of therapeutic help; it brings relaxation, a certain emotional tranquility, and even mental and psychological; it can emotionally relax, but even so, the sense of “I” remains present because it is not being seen.
You cannot perceive the movement of the “I” when there is no mirror in front of you, and in living, in life, in the ordinary movement of everyday life, driving your car, talking to people, at work, or whatever other activity, you can just observe the movement of the mind, and this observation of the movement of the mind puts you in front of this mirror. This mirror is the relationship between the external and the internal; looking at this is to verify the Truth about oneself in this Self-Awareness. When that Self-Awareness is present, we approach Meditation – I have called it the True Meditation, Real Meditation, something that is present here and now, moment by moment.
Every moment there is the opportunity to observe yourself. Observing yourself is to study yourself. It is interesting to touch on this sense of study here – and this is how we have always put it – it is not about the study of the sacred books, but rather yourself, becoming aware of these internal states of restlessness, anxiety, worry, psychological discomfort, of unhappiness. Becoming aware of this, here and now, is Self-Awareness, and this is the direct contact with Meditation in practice at this moment. It’s always at this moment, talking, writing, dealing with business, working, walking, at every moment you are always in touch with that sense of an “I” present, facing the challenge that is life, that is this mysterious movement that always occurs here and now. Contact with this is contact with self-observation, Self-Awareness, and Meditation.
True Meditation is to be aware of that movement of the mind, a thought, a feeling, an emotion arises, a speech happens, a gesture, whatever arises; you become aware of it, just watching. Here the fundamental element is the absence of psychological time for True Meditation in practice. What do I mean by the absence of psychological time? What do I mean by True Meditation in practice?
True Meditation in practice is in living, day by day, it is here and now, and there isn’t a special moment for it – as it was said – to become aware of all the internal movement of thought, feeling, emotion, gestures, speech, and so on, here and now. And the non-presence of this psychological time is to understand that when the “I” appears – and the “I” is the one who, when observing a thought, wants to reject it or identifies with that thought and confirms identity in that... When you do this, if that makes you uncomfortable, you want to get rid of, when that gives you pleasure, you want to identify with the thought – you put the “I” element, which is the element of psychological time, in that experience. Whenever the “I” appears, it separates itself to do something with what it sees; that is the presence of time. “I want to get rid of it”: Here is the “I” with its psychological time; or “I love it”: Here is the “I” confirming an identity coming from the past, which is just memory, remembrance, this “I” being just the illusion of a thinker giving identity to a thought.
Follow it calmly. We have an extensive playlist here on the channel explaining this game to you, which is the game of the “I” within experience, which is the game of the thinker within thought, “of the one who feels” within the feeling, “the one who is moved by” within the emotion, “the one who is observing” being an observer of what he is observing. When that observer appears, time appears; when this thinker appears, time appears – here I refer to the psychological time – when the one who says “I want” appears, psychological time appears, and when it appears saying “I don't want,” it is the appearance of psychological time. So, to be free from this psychological time, to be in front of what appears here and now, without the presence of the psychological time, which is the presence of the “I” – the presence of the observer, of the one who likes and dislikes, the one who seeks and the one who wants to get rid of it – when that psychological time is not present because the sense of “I” is not there, the thinker, the observer, the experiencer is not present, Something entirely new shows itself. Then, this is the presence of the Natural State of Meditation, because Meditation is the presence of Reality when the “I” is not present and when there is no more sense of ego-identity.
Your Natural State of Being Pure Consciousness, the Divine Truth of your Being, is What is present here and now, when the “I,” the sense of an egoic identity, this thinker, this observer, this experiencer – which represents the presence of psychological time in our lives – when that is not present, the Reality of your Being flourishes, the Reality of Meditation is present. So, True Meditation is here and now, when the sense of “I” is not present. You are writing, speaking, working, dealing with some subject and, at that instant, there is this Presence, this Consciousness about yourself, here and now. Notice that this includes the truth of what I have here called Mindfulness.
This Mindfulness is present when there is no sense of psychological time, which is the sense of an “I” present within the experience. It is not something you will learn from someone else or study in a course; it is something you will discover by observing yourself, having that deep and Real interest in looking at all the inner and outer movements of life without putting this element, which is the element “I” present. So, in that sense, this Natural State of Pure Consciousness, where there is no sense of the “I,” the ego, is Real Meditation, and, naturally, this includes within it a Natural State of Mindfulness, effortlessly, without any imposed discipline, any technique. Something we face here and now, and that is what brings about this internal transformation, this transformation of consciousness. And here, when I use the expression “transformation of consciousness,” I refer to the end of this illusory mental consciousness. In this sense, a new Consciousness is present. It is not an old consciousness going through a process of transformation or change, but that old, illusory consciousness, which is the consciousness of “I,” vanishing into a new Consciousness. So, here we are at a Real change on a whole new level in this body-mind-brain. That is the transformation of that consciousness, the end of that old and illusory identity present in the experience of thinking, feeling, and acting; the end of that illusory mental or egoic consciousness involved with all kinds of complications, conditioning, problems, suffering, desires, fears, and afflictions. Thus, the Realization of the Divine Truth, which is the Realization of God, is Something here and now, showing itself as your Being, the Truth of God about you.
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